barry manilow, teen angst and solitude
i talked to my surgeon's office today and they said that what is taking so long is "politics" between the hospital and the insurance company! grrrr...my whole life is on hold while their beauraucratic bs continues. i'm just ready to get this done and move forwards. i do want to go back to work...kind of! and the longer i'm off work the more difficult it will be for me to go back. i get so emeshed in my solitude...staying home with my animals and my jewelry. it's gets harder and harder to leave the house for anything. i find myself always making excuses for why i can't leave, or putting things off so i don't have to leave. i could be such a great hermit! but i sometimes get more depressed when i'm solitary too long, so that is definitely something to be concerned with. it's a delicate balance. and i'm such an ALL person that moderation doesn't have much place in my life!